Failure?

Up until the 2nd of December I never failed anything really significant in my life. Only once did I fail to making a sports team but that was because my heart was with tennis and not with baseball. In that case, I wanted to fail. So, when I took the LSAT on that fateful saturday and received my score a few weeks later I never really new what it was like. I did fail the most important test that I had ever taken, the one that would determine so much of my future.

But did I really fail this test?

Yes, I did spend the majority of that year studying for it. Every weekend I took a practice test and spent 3 hours in class nearly every weekday. But what for? All this test told me was that because of unforseen circumstances and because of one test score, schools wouldn't consider me for admission and I wouldn't be applying to law school that year. So what!

Did I really even want to go to law school?

When people asking me why I wanted to go to law school and me struggling for a concrete answer wasn't enough, this test maybe told me that I didn't have a good reason to go and that I should reconsider it. Finally, I did come up with a good reason, and that was to help those less fortunate (i.e. public interest or immigration law). I still think that that is a good reason but I'm not passionate about it.

So, now what do I do? I'm still in the process of figuring that out. The other option that I had along with law school was to do a master's and PhD in Spanish. This is something I really love and would love to give others the opportunity to learn about it.

I don't know. The next few months, along with getting married and starting a new life with Beckie will give some time to think and pray about things. We're still young and life has presented us with limitless opportunities. Only time will tell.

One month to go!

One month to go until Beckie and I leave our single days behind. It's kind of surreal. Am I excited? Well, I think the initial excitement has worn off because we've been engaged nearly 3 months. I'm pretty much just tired of waiting and want it to be over with so Beckie and I can start life together as a married couple.

It doesn't help that this past month has been pretty tough, not so much for me but for Beckie. First, there was the stolen purse and now this past weekend there was a fire in Beckie's apartment. Luckily, everything wasn't lost. Because the fire was concentrated between the walls it lacked enough oxygen to ignite anything outside of the walls. The damage was from the smoke. The furniture needs to be professionally cleaned and the clothes needed various washes. We did lose our large collection of board games including my favorite, Settler's of Zarahemla.

Despite all of this hassle, Beckie and I have been blessed to find an excellent apartment more centrally located behind Barnes & Noble in Orem. It is a nicer apartment and even less expensive. The landlord seems like a very nice person. We're very excited to live there together. We're moving in Beckie this weekend and then I'll gradually move things in up until the wedding. By the time we get back from Seattle, everything will be settled.